5 de Julho
- Ai neurónio 2, não tens saudades de sentir coisas romântico-sexuais?
- Tenho pois neurónio 1, faz uma eternidade que as nossas sinapses são uma grande seca de emoções
- Quem me dera que esta gaja tivesse um crush por uns neurónios alheios
- Sim, este marasmo é insuportável, mesmo que os crushes do passado nos tenham causado um stress do caneco e uns bons milhares dos nossos colegas morreram, é melhor sentir coisas que não sentir nada.
31 de Agosto
- Neurónio 1, estou nem posso!
- Também eu neurónio 2, esta gaja não tem remédio, fail after fail!
- Só me apetece gritar, chorar, bater no indivíduo, pedir, insultar, beijar, abraçar, mandar à merda, mendigar atenção e sentimentos, apagar o número de telemóvel, eliminar o indivíduo do fb, dançar com ele, cantar-lhe uma música ao ouvido, humilha-lo, dormir com ele, fazer conchinha, matá-lo, dizer-lhe que gostamos dele não sabendo porquê, desejar furiosamente que ele também goste de nós, rebolar de frustração e de rejeição e tirar fotografias com ele.
- Agora temos que nos aguentar à bronca
- Pois, queriamos sinapses, sinapses temos, são é um bocado dolorosas
- Ainda te lembras como pomos termino a isto?
- Não faço ideia ...
30/08/14
26/08/14
I just want to cry (ainda por cima por minha culpa e por uma merdice, como sempre)
Ontem combino ir ao cinema com um gajo. Para me armar em corajosa e porque é uma vontade que tenho desde que o conheci, disse que tinha uma surpresa. Disse que podia a ser algo em grande ou pequeno, algo material ou imaterial, ou mesmo uma palavra sobrevalorizada para criar expectativas infundadas. O que eu quero é dançar (tentativa) com ele uma música específica, mais na brincadeira que a sério. Eu já sabia que ia ser algo difícil de fazer, porque não me caracterizo por ser corajosa e arriscar a fazer figura triste (aka rejeição). O facto de o ter escrito numa mensagem já foi com a intenção de me obrigar a cumprir. Depois, como de costume, não consigo ver qualquer sinal de interesse romântico-sexual da parte dele, apesar do esforço que ele faz para estar comigo, isso confunde-me. Para ajudar ele nunca referiu a surpresa, e eu li isso como completa falta de interesse e medo pelo o que surpresa podese ser.
Agora estou aqui com o grande sapo na garganta e um dique quase a rebentar nos olhos, apenas contido porque não tenho privacidade para chorar.
Eu nem gosto dele, acho eu, apenas estou agarrada a esta história porque é a coisa mais excitante que de momento ocorre na minha vida (história aborrecida, mas mesmo assim), porque vou tendo atenção de tempos a tempos, porque no meu inocente coração ainda acho que cada pessoa é uma oportunidade de encontrar o amor.
Pronto, a minha room mate deve estar a entrar em choque porque o dique rebentou.
Ai se eu pudesse, chorava que me fartava.
Agora estou aqui com o grande sapo na garganta e um dique quase a rebentar nos olhos, apenas contido porque não tenho privacidade para chorar.
Eu nem gosto dele, acho eu, apenas estou agarrada a esta história porque é a coisa mais excitante que de momento ocorre na minha vida (história aborrecida, mas mesmo assim), porque vou tendo atenção de tempos a tempos, porque no meu inocente coração ainda acho que cada pessoa é uma oportunidade de encontrar o amor.
Pronto, a minha room mate deve estar a entrar em choque porque o dique rebentou.
Ai se eu pudesse, chorava que me fartava.
09/08/14
Já não roubava há muito tempo
Being single isn't fun. In fact, it can be a very lonely time, and that time only becomes worse if being single or being alone is your biggest fear. There are many benefits to alone time and the most significant benefit is learning how to love yourself, stand on your own and work on building your confidence. There is nothing more appealing than confidence and nothing more attractive. If you continue to end up in dead-end relationships, your fear of being alone is probably keeping you with the wrong partners.
3 Self-Sabotage Patterns Driven by Fear:
1. Dating the Emotionally Unattached:
When we are afraid of being alone, we become needy. The greatest counterpart to someone needy is a partner who doesn't need us. This becomes a game of cat and mouse with the cat always chasing -- but never catching -- the mouse. If your partner doesn't take the time to nurture you or the other relationships in their life, there is no way you are going to be "the one" to change them. This is about emotional maturity. The emotionally unavailable are not mature enough to sustain any more than a cat and mouse game. If you stay with someone like this, you will feel more alone than if you were single, but your fears of being alone keep you from seeing rejection as more painful than aloneness.
2. Excusing The Unacceptable:
The fear of being alone can trap you into accepting treatment that is far below the standard of what you deserve. If you find that you are constantly justifying and rationalizing your partner's treatment by saying to yourself or to others that "nobody's perfect," or "it's not that bad," then you are running from your own insecurity into a relationship that will only create more insecurity for you. Further, justifying and staying in these dead-end relationships only keeps you from finding the right person for you.
3. Not Letting Go of Ex's:
If you are unable to let go of past relationships, needing to hang on or keep somewhat of a door open just in case you end up single again, you put too many players on the field. If you really want to be in love, you have to be able to take the risk of committing yourself to one person. If you have closed a chapter with an ex, keep it closed so you can give yourself fully to the new person in your life.
The fear of being alone drives us to lose our perspective on love and the value we have for ourselves. We will date anyone, accept anyone, chase after anyone and/or not let go of any of them. The best way to find a lasting relationship is not when you are in one. The best time to find one is to first find a lasting and connected grounding with your own self, with your life and with your worth. The best time to meet someone is when you no longer feel that "need" for a relationship. It is your job to create an individual life that you like so much that you do not need to be rescued from it.
Sherrie Campbell, PhD
Veteran, licensed Psychologist
roubado: http://movimentoaleatorio.blogspot.fr/
3 Self-Sabotage Patterns Driven by Fear:
1. Dating the Emotionally Unattached:
When we are afraid of being alone, we become needy. The greatest counterpart to someone needy is a partner who doesn't need us. This becomes a game of cat and mouse with the cat always chasing -- but never catching -- the mouse. If your partner doesn't take the time to nurture you or the other relationships in their life, there is no way you are going to be "the one" to change them. This is about emotional maturity. The emotionally unavailable are not mature enough to sustain any more than a cat and mouse game. If you stay with someone like this, you will feel more alone than if you were single, but your fears of being alone keep you from seeing rejection as more painful than aloneness.
2. Excusing The Unacceptable:
The fear of being alone can trap you into accepting treatment that is far below the standard of what you deserve. If you find that you are constantly justifying and rationalizing your partner's treatment by saying to yourself or to others that "nobody's perfect," or "it's not that bad," then you are running from your own insecurity into a relationship that will only create more insecurity for you. Further, justifying and staying in these dead-end relationships only keeps you from finding the right person for you.
3. Not Letting Go of Ex's:
If you are unable to let go of past relationships, needing to hang on or keep somewhat of a door open just in case you end up single again, you put too many players on the field. If you really want to be in love, you have to be able to take the risk of committing yourself to one person. If you have closed a chapter with an ex, keep it closed so you can give yourself fully to the new person in your life.
The fear of being alone drives us to lose our perspective on love and the value we have for ourselves. We will date anyone, accept anyone, chase after anyone and/or not let go of any of them. The best way to find a lasting relationship is not when you are in one. The best time to find one is to first find a lasting and connected grounding with your own self, with your life and with your worth. The best time to meet someone is when you no longer feel that "need" for a relationship. It is your job to create an individual life that you like so much that you do not need to be rescued from it.
Sherrie Campbell, PhD
Veteran, licensed Psychologist
roubado: http://movimentoaleatorio.blogspot.fr/
01/08/14
A alma é fraca
Para quem se auto impôs que só voltava a dar notícias no domingo à noite sexta-feira a meio do dia é um grande falhanço. A imaginação é uma verdadeira droga e as projecções um verdadeiro tiro no pé. A música também não ajuda. Masoquista for life.
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